This is a nonsensical essay thing on something that is important to me when it comes to my hobby: anime.
The early days of getting into anime, shiny discs were flying in and out of the DVD player with no questioning and hesitation. Just me and sole concentration of series I was bingeing carefree with my friend. Those times are a precious memory to me that I feel like I have betrayed these days, for one entering into the blogging world and sharing my anime voice on social platforms, have changed how I treat my passion itself. I won’t sit here and blame myself for happening, as my sheer enthusiasm to connect with other fans, people back then was full of good intentions. Somewhere you will get lost or I also in the whirlpool of multi-tasking series at a time, “You should watch this” add to your endless watch list, seasonals. None of these silly, small things should affect you but they do.
The point it got real bad me sitting there, staring at my TV screen, crunchyroll is open, staring over at my anime shelf was last year. The root of it all getting aboard the manga train on instagram, posting more frequently about what I was reading. Quashing of what anime I wanted to watch when wanting a break from manga. Seeing everyday on twitter constant pour of new anime being announced, it’s insane what’s coming out on conveyor belt. Constantly adding to my plan to watch list of 615. In addition seasonal anime up keep killed things more for me, Seeing everywhere people wanting to be apart of the big conversation. Trends reign supreme over us with no effort required, so easily. This invisible force appearing that you were missing out because you’re watching an anime from 1999. Almost appears as this underlying sickness no-one can control.
Yashahime: Princess Half-Demon is prime example, announced in May last year, I was stupid excited, watched the first episode then inclination to continue on was gone. It was something wanted to save for later, so as my inner binger was saying. It became a reoccurrence watching many first episodes then not continuing on because I don’t think there was a spark of urgency to, not because I wasn’t interested. After this a feeling of overwhelm overtook me towards end of last year to how I had been treating my hobby, almost felt ashamed at one point. Letting it get to this point, from many outer influences crushing my passion a little, alarmed me.
Funny to write about how to treat your anime, everyone can do whatever they want but the volume of anime at our expense these days and invisible urgency people feel to consume talk of the town shows. Dreads me to think they’ll drown in overwhelm like I did and loose interest, others may not but we’re all different how we choose consume our entertainment. At beginning of this year I squashed reverting back to staring into confusion of what to watch, readjusting to one series at a time. I can manage to watch a slice of life on the side but no more than that for me these days. Last year being contained in that consumption cycle to watch things for blog, post my thoughts after a volume of manga to instagram, fulfilling old recommendations from friends. Taking on that load is not a hobby, it’s a job. Hobbies aren’t jobs, having this blog in the past has made anime feel like a job at points because I got all consumed.
Sure, I may have been overwhelmed to a point of questioning how I was treating my anime but trying to do all the things, caught in that web last year guess just showed how invested anime has me at heart. But I don’t want to get to that point again. Anime I can’t help but to treat with respect and care more than I’ve ever. So how should I treat my anime? like those carefree earlier days that I cherish because it was just simple back then, compared to now. One streaming or one DVD at a time.
Thankyou for reading my ridiculous thoughts on a strange topic but that’s what this blog is for, a thought dump. So are you someone staring at your screen and don’t know what to watch? Keeping up with trends or being apart of the conversation do you feel urgency to do? Share your thoughts on this strange topic with me! so I don’t feel like a weirdo ahaha lol
I’ll see you in the next post!