Having Strength In Your Voice – ( May Owls Blog Tour)

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This month’s topic for May “Strength” had me pumped up.


If you have ended up here, be from my fellow member Arria’s post and I welcome you. It’s that time of the month again for my Owl’s topic post for the carnival. I have to admit, was very excited for this topic we are covering for the month of May “Strength”


“Your greatest weakness can become your greatest strength.”

In anime, characters struggle with inner demons or physical weaknesses that make them feel insecure and prevent them from achieving goals. Yet when these characters overcome their adversity, they can finally be able to express who they are or in other words, “Free to be Me.”

For this tour, we will be exploring anime characters that have overcome adversity due to a personal insecurity or physical weakness. It is these type of characters that many anime fans may identify as role models because fans are able to feel empathetic towards these characters’ struggles and insecurities.



If your not familiar with the group I am apart of, we are known as Owls, group of Otaku bloggers. Whom every month we do blog tour posts on the related topic at hand, our goal is to spread positivity and promote of human equality, gender, race and all round acceptance. We use anime as our outlet to express our points relating to the topic again and joining owls has been so much.

When don’t we ever face our demons? We want to run, hide, anxiety kicks us in the face. You, I probably have been there many times, the greatest strength of all is to own up to all of it. But…. we know this already? We know we should but you just seep into denial and people see this as weakness. What else is seen as weakness? From past mistakes you’ve made? The prejudgement of others making a assumption like that, they don’t know. Not knowing of what your going through, your battle inside of you. Who are they to say this? We work through things at our own pace, So what if you want to hide from all the mess? Who saids that weak?

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Before delving into the series I’ll be highlighting in this post, I wanted to speak from a personal place. For myself as a person, I’ve never felt like a strong person but this thinking comes from having Autism. There was a time I would never be telling people this, let alone in a post like this but now I’m older, think different. To give you a better understanding my autism, I’m classed as a high functioning adult, most people I talk with would never pick me to have it. It’s not been fun at times dealing with or having this condition, people’s understanding of it is different to how I perceive it.. Never until now that I’ve truly accepted that this is a part of me, I denied a lot in my childhood and teens.

It’s no secret that you can assume, that yes I was bullied. Socialising with people was always difficult, even now I still struggle at times. Constantly was the target for the bullies, it got to a point where I called the people who bullied me friends. Why? because I didn’t want to feel utterly alone, it was sad actually. All the time I denied that part of me that set me apart from other people, wishing I wasn’t so socially awkward, not understanding certain conversations people had. It just set my anxiety off like a rocket, but I’m talking a different anxiety that you may be thinking of. For anyone who has autism or condition like me, the anxiety aspect is very vastly different, I would call them whenever I had them, mental meltdowns. Everything just stops around me and I’m focusing on solely what is causing me the anxiety, it’s like being in a dark hole 24/7. I don’t expect people to fully understand but that’s a basic outlook.

Having autism has many trials on a daily basis and for someone like me you want to feel normal. Ha but what is normal? I wanted to be a more confident, smarter person but knew I wasn’t. Even now I still feel the same on that issue, that I’m not a strong person, situations I ever dealt with, I would deal with on my own. I’d keep it all bottled up inside then when it all poured out reaching my limit, I’d feel so weak. The quote above perfectly describes of when it’s just killing inside, lying to yourself that your okay when your really not.

Denial Of Ourselves

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All you ever want to be is heard, have a voice? A Silent voice delves into this scope in such a relatable sense, that resonates so easily. Two protagonists Shoko and Shoya both had to face things that put them in that dark pit. Shoko is hearing impaired, deaf and becomes the centre of Shoya’s amusement during middle school. Shoya liked to never be bored, trouble maker thus bullied Shoko all the while. For those who have condition like mine or whatever may be, born blind, deaf it’s would only feel natural to connect with Shoko’s character. The bullies wouldn’t think about the impact they were placing on your fragile mindset, for the future, all about amusement. Shouko’s passionate effort to make friends with her class mates is warming yet wrenching to the heart, as others ignored neither wanting to try to understand or befriend her.

When those cannot understand or comprehend just sets you on the path of doubt, after trying and trying. This is how Shoko felt, lead her to feeling like she was a burden on others, constantly saying over and over “Sorry”. Leading to the point of her attempting to end her life, that scene in the movie is so serial and daunting honestly. One quote I could never get out of my head that Shoko said to Shoya “I’ll be unhappy if I’m with her”. Full of such sadness and guilt, you can imagine Shoko was at point of screaming on the inside, to be heard. Faking your okay is the easy way out, Shoko was running away but when have you or I ever done what Shoko did?

I resonated with Shoko’s character so easily, to know what it feels like to say sorry over all the time. I said a lot, because I felt like that was all you could say, if I didn’t understand something in a conversation, was quiet in the background. People would tell me to speak up more but again the word “Sorry” would just keep going on, like a record player. Shoko felt like she had tried enough but Ueno fellow friend on Shoya, screamed to her she was using an excuse. Ueno’s frustration just reminded me of those who don’t wish to understand, the strength it takes you to pick yourself up. From meeting Shoya again, Shoko slowly began to be less shy and was all at her pace. Personally Ueno’s character never appealed to me but she played a part in Shoko push out of her pit.

 


 

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To block out what we don’t want to deal.

Shoya you won’t be able to not connect with, he puts it harder on himself more than Shoko did I feel. From bullying Shoko constantly caused her to transfer schools, resulting Shoya being excluded and bullied himself. Shoya entering into high school, became he’s very reserved and blocked out everyone, true denial of himself. You have to imagine the constant guilt, blame from what he did to Shoko, being a constant reminder. Left feeling to the point of hating himself. It built up this wall that blocked out anything, not wishing to get close with anyone. The representation in the manga and film of Shoya’s resent to not getting close to others, you’ll see people with crosses over their faces.

Shoya and Shoko are quite the denying pair but should this be seen as weak? There are points in our lives where we just don’t want to deal, where the greater strength comes from facing what it is we must, but we need that push. Don’t we?

 



To Redeem, To Be Heard


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Shoya had it hardest out of the pair, feeling past guilt he couldn’t escape then meeting Shoko again when their older. The whole time inside he was screaming, screaming pain of someone to just hear him out, but his anxiety and guilt would not allow that. It all got to a point like for Shoko, of wanting take his own life, again seeing this serial concept is so sad. Some of us just want to be heard out, not judged for past tense things but we pull ourselves back, fearing no one will want to hear. Exactly what Shoya was dealing with, learning sign language and trying to befriend Shoko wasn’t easy for Shoya. His attempts were questioned as just selfish to make himself better or he was still running away but it’s so clear he was really trying. Even when others shut him down.

All Shoya wanted was to redeem himself but he didn’t know what was the right way to go about. What was the saddest for Shoya, he felt like he wasn’t allowed to have friends or anyone listen to him, didn’t feel like he had the right too. Though Shoko the centre of why he wanted to redeem, the only one who didn’t shut Shoya down. All it can take is one person to give you a chance, a second chance. There’s no way I could hate Shoya’s actions for the full steam effort he puts into, trying to break free of the guilt he hung onto. It takes right up until the end when Shoya releases all of his anxiety and guilt, his sorrowful plight towards Shoko is truly beautiful.

Shoya’s strength to hold on even though it was painful, is something we should see as inspirational. Myself envies Shoya as in the end he had someone who would hear him out, during my high school time, never did I have a single person. Isn’t it enough to show how important to feel your input matters? Shoya and Shoko are not weak in dealing with their own denial and anxiety, it was at their own pace. The greatest strength to be seen here was just hanging in there even at the darkest time. Shoya and Shoko made a bad decisions but still were their for one another, second strength right there. To rely on one another even if either was not feeling at their best, Shoya showed this when Shoko was about to attempt suicide. This is why listening, just listening can give someone such strength alone. 

Strength In Numbers

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Shoya and Shoko gave each other strength. Along side them the people past or new they befriended, this benefited I feel mostly for Shoya. At the end of the movie is the most beautiful scene that brings you tears for Shoya  and the lead up to you will feel was more than worthwhile. Shouko and Shoya were able to both face their anxieties and lingering guilts together, its true they say strength in numbers. We can’t face our demons alone at times, the simple allowance of someone listening, just be there, it’s an indescribable feeling, let me tell you. We all want to feel like we have a voice in this world, to be heard, Do yourself a favour after reading this, go watch A Silent Voice. Beautiful story of redemption in such a youthful, real aspect that you’ve never seen before.

 



That concludes my owls post, I hope you all enjoyed. I added some personal aspect in this one as this topic hit home for me. Be on the look out 26th for Taku’s post.

Keep up to date on Owls on our Blog and Twitter !!

I’ll see you guys in the next post !! 
LitaKino

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19 thoughts on “Having Strength In Your Voice – ( May Owls Blog Tour)

  1. Oh my gosh. This is an amazing post. I’m sorry you had to go through that as a kid. I’m so sorry. But I hope people are treating you better now. I love this post so much. It’s something I can relate to, even if I’m not deaf or have autism or if I haven’t seen this movie or read the manga yet. Thank you

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    • Aww wren thankyou my friend so glad you enjoyed reading it XD Aww I have left the past behind Im not the same person I was then. thankyou for the concern though XD

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  2. I still need to read the series but after reading the first volume, there so much pain going on on these characters. Excellent work on the post, Lita! You make me want to read the story more! I feel bad that you went through a lot as well. I may not know how it feels to have autsim but I want to let you know that all of us anibloggers respect and you are a great friend! If you don’t believe me, ask the OWLS or even your co-host Shay!

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    • Awww thankyou muchly Matt. I’m very proud of this post a lot !!
      It’s okay Matty past is the past but I know a lot of people here see me as there friend and I’m fine about it all now 👍🏼😊

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      • You’re welcome Lita. I am glad to hear you love this post. You hit the nail on this topic. I am happy to see you moved past all the bad stuff. No matter what, we got your back. You are an awesome friend! 🙂

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  3. Great post! We need more manga like A Silent Voice.

    I’m glad you’ve come so far, to now know that people who bully you aren’t friends. It’s too bad so many conditions have a social stigma attached to them. I hope you don’t have to encounter more “friends” like that in the future.

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  4. This is only the second owls post I’ve read now and I’m starting to get emotional. For a part, this was a very personal post, so thank you so much for sharing. The sense of caring and guidance I’m getting from these is overwhelming. Thank you again! Can’t wait for next month’s

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  5. Great post Lita!!
    sadly the movie is doesn’t air anywhere near me (apparently no where in Canada -_-) but I will certainly try to at least read the 1st chapter if I can find it, even if I’m not normally fond of the genre.

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  6. Lita, it took me forever to write this comment, but your post was even better than I could have imagined! You know how I feel about personal posts and this one hit me in the feels! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us, you did an excellent job of tying it in with the film and now more than ever I want to see it! Fantastic post my love!

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  7. What a powerful piece Lita! Thank you for writing something so personal. I know it can be hard to write personal posts but this really moved me very deeply. The idea of defending the people who were bullying you and calling them your friends really stuck with me. I’ve seen this while teaching and it always breaks my heart because I know the student being hurt just doesn’t want to be alone. So it really makes me upset when I see people bullying and not taking it seriously. You’re so strong! I loved this post!

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  8. It was inspiring Lita. I believe you are a confident and smart person. It’s because you are Lita.. I won’t even mind if you have autism… You have your own beautiful uniqueness. 🙂
    Nice thoughts on this.
    OWLS is doing great! ^^

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  9. This is a very inspiring post, Lita. You are very brave to share about your autism. Thank you for sharing something so personal with us. I haven’t watched A Silent Voice yet, but I’m looking forward to watching it soon. It sounds like a beautiful and touching story. It’s sad when you said that you envy Shoya for having someone listen to him, while you had nobody listen to you when you were still in school. But now, you have all of us in the blogging world listening to you…and you are EVERYWHERE! You are strong, Lita. Cheers!

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    • Awww thankyou Arria !! I hope you enjoy a silent voice whenever you get to watch it. Your not the only one I made feel sad but I know blogging peeps are excellent listeners !!

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